In Who Do You Trust??

 

Have you ever felt blindsided by something??

 

Just when it seems like you have everything together, your life is turned upside down and it is NOTHING how you planned. This basically sums up my past year.

 

January is a time for new beginnings, new goals, changes and a different way. For many, it may be personal or perhaps professional or may even focus on others. It is a time when we look back on the past year and basically decide what we did not like and what we need to change in order to live a better life.

 

Although I am not one that typically admits to making "resolutions", I can see the value and I love to see the spark in the eyes of others at the time of year. However, I find it daunting to have another list of ways that I want to change about myself.... Is it just me?

 

Sitting in church service today, I was reminded that God has a different way of showing us a plan for our lives. Often times, what we might consider to be successful and what that looks like is totally different from what He has planned. We always hear that there is a plan for our life and we must be open to it, but do we really live that out? My past year couldn't have been a better depiction of this type of trust and faith. In losing my job after a long and often tiring battle with those around me, I became an unemployed wife and mother. For many years, my identity depended upon my career and the influence that I had in the community. Call it what you may, but that experience will forever be one of the most humbling.

 

Needless to say, I am constantly reminded of His grace and His plan for me and that I need to be just like my 2 year old daughter who stands on the floor, reaches up her arms and says "Uppy Daisy Momma"! I am done accepting misery over surrender, done trying to control what I think or feel should happen, done basing my worth on how others might have seen me in the past. I am to live a life of dependence and one that is a living sacrifice.

 

What holds you back from completely surrendering to that which you cannot control??